There are some people I look at now and think Thank god we didn’t work out.
And I think how refreshing of a thought that is. Thank god we didn’t work out. Thank god I am not that person. Thank god you’re a fucking asshole. Thank god I didn’t get stuck in that life. I always wanted so much more than that.
And I wonder if I will someday think that way about you. It is hard to see which directions our lives will take until we are already well on the way into the future. But someday, will I look back and think that while we had some good times together, I am grateful that things didn’t work out between us? Where will I be when I think that? Who will I be?
Life is moving along. As it always does. School is busy. Friendships are forming. I got a new car. A 2005 Mustang. I am trying to project the life that I want. My old boss, Linda always told me that if I put out positive energy in the universe, I will bring it back in. That I will attract positive people into my life. She’s the reason I moved here. She made me realize that I should stop holding myself back from opportunity. That you have to take ahold of your life. That if you’re not happy with the way things are, stand up and change it.
And I did. I am. I will.
